This is probably the toughest I am writing in my entire life. I start to think about all we had and how it turned this way... You disappointed me with what you did in the past and doing at this moment....to be honest nothing have changed...same shit over and over again...and things you done wasn't very classy of you we both deserve to be happy and I am NOT going to live a life far apart from the person I love more than anything and I am a person with potentials and goals in my life and no one is allowed to make me feel crap I just cant take it anymore..

I would always remember your goodness, consideration, thoughtfulness and the respect you have shown me throughout our time together. We never had any meaningful communications ever since we’ve known each other. But the brief moments when our paths cross created memories that will remain forever in my mind and heart.

We both have our own life now, whether by destiny, desire or accident. It is the vocation that we both choose to have. I’m sure you don’t regret it and very much happy with it. This I believe is my final goodbye; I have to learn to face the reality of that you belong to someone else.

I’m been the only one  who been trying to hang on. But, what ever the case, rest assured that you will always occupy a special place in my heart. Too many unanswered questions that will soon become just a part of our life long reflection.  Perhaps the answer is still yet to come. Maybe, there’s no answer at all. Only God knows what lay up ahead for us. Maybe there’s another cross road in our life where we will meet again. Perhaps that time, we will decide to choose the same path to travel. Perhaps, that time, we will be together once again in our journey in life.

it's like you always play the victim and am the one you  always blame..you  can hide behind your lies and  stories , but dont take me for a fool..In the end of day you are the one who is married and trying To have the cake and eat it also...Your husband and all your lovers can accept it BUT Never ever me!!! Are you getting cold feets now knowing that I will Make this happen and YOU don't know how to tell me that you can't? You know just what to do, And how to use the best of you To try and change my mind, But my eyes are opening this time And I read you Youre just so predictable In every way I want you to know I know your game..Its so unbelievable!! How you never change...but am tellin u "You wont get away"Coz things will never be the same..that wont happen to  me...

No no, Not Again..Now that I know your every move How you gonna hide baby what you gonna do Now that somebody knows the truth About you and how youre just so predictable.. On the first day that I met you I should've known to  walk away..

Everyone around me been keep telling me you not that one for me from DAY one.. But I never listend to know and let my heart to decide... Look what a mess a have  Thanks to you and your damn lifes which is based on lies from DAY one!! Instead i stood there  waiting. And hoping you would change..but i guess I was wrong in so many ways about YOU.

You can hide behind your  stories...You can tell me that there's nobody else but what about your husband ? You Cant tell me that you are home instead going out every night.YOU can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but i know, I know.. Your  love is just a lie!! (Lie, Lie,Drama, Lie) It's nothing but all  lie!! (Lie, Lie) I wana ask you..How does it feel when you break me over and over again do you  think about me when your husband or your so called "friends" kisses you...? or you sleeping next to your husband everyday..?

Answer me 4 God sake..Its all abig lie...whatever YOU  do.!!!. Coz I know you never ever loved me or Cared about me, coz if you would you would never ever treat me like This coz I been the one who always cared about you and loved you and always been on your side!! One day you are going to wake up feeling sorry..

But am telling you now You are just awaste of time...and its all a big show... keep hiding behind your  stories,, keep hiding behind yo ur lies,, But be carefull coz one day the game may turn on YOU..

My love for you were honest and truthful, and I was the more decieved, believing yours to be the same. I regret that you found our life together so unworthy and disgusting.  Please respect my wishes and do not send any apologies or platitudes. I do not believe a restoration of our realationship could occur, but if you have come to realize that your honor and heart require you to try,

I will try to grant you at least some of the opportunities you denied me. My promises, my love, and my vows mean that much to me.

I am writing about this rather than talking because there are some things I just don't seem to be able to talk to you about. In fact that's another real important reason why our relationship can't go on we just don't talk anymore, every conversations ends up in a fight and nothing is ever settled. So let's not torture each other anymore and just admit to each other it is over.

I truly believe that both of us will be happier just going our own ways. It's time to move on and put this relationship behind us. I hope that like me you will remember the good times we have had and not let are recent fights and arguments fill you with bitterness you shattered my dreams, my life and hopes. Now I can see you were just playing with my emotions and didn't really care about me at all.

All those romantic moments and intimate times did not mean a thing to you. I was just another conquest for you. I really want you to know how much you have hurt me with your cold and unfeeling actions. I would never have hurt you like this and have given you no reason to behave like this.

I really wish you the very best in all your endeavors and I hope you would find a better person who could really match what you are looking for. It is tough for me to tell you this in person and hence, I thought I would express my sincere intentions in words. I hope you find the one who can  accept and deal with everything in your life...

Perhaps you will find that I'm trying to justify my decision to move on. To alleviate my guilt of leaving this relationship. Maybe I'm and for that I'm truly sorry. But I also strongly believe that a person as special as you deserves someone who is just like her and treat her they way she treat others in her selfish way!

I've tried my best a thousand times to tell you what I wanted with you, at same time I've accepted a lot and same time been through loads of shit because of you but you never cared. Silent words across a screen how could they mean so much to me.I promised myself I would not cry.Then a silent tear falls from my eye. What did I do, what did I say....Everyday, I was waiting for a sign To let me know, you might still want to be mind. Andother day comes and goes nothing really happens everything she says is just a big lies, like her love, her promises to me and everything you ever expressed how you feel about me....just LIES!

Why did you say you loved me? Then turn around and set me free? I love you and want you, But I know I can't make you love me or be with me when you cant. All the words you said to me, That seemed to be so true. Were nothing but thoughtless lies, That I thought would never come from you. They seemed so real and seemed so true. I was begining to think that you really loved me But I should of known it was all an act, That I was just another part.Just another person to add To your list of broken hearts...

Sometimes I am tired of dreams. I wish that one, just one in the form of love will awaken me and so I keep on trying, I keep on believing, I feel like I keep on dreaming.

One day, one night, maybe, maybe I will live a dream with YOU my dear special for the rest of my life and then I will know that my life is/was truly fulfilling and happy. Without love, is life a dream that never comes true?

I gathered my strength, closed my eyes and smiled as I recalled those sweet memories we had. I whispered your name to sleep and that I would hold on to that because I know, I just know that reality is playing a trick on me. Once in a while I got news from you and nothing could be better than that. The words that you have said, the times that we have spent, mean the whole world to me. I believe in love, I believe in romance, i believe in you, I believe in us... and I trust you. I love you.At times I feel all alone as if part of me is missing I know you are still there but so very far away sometimes I imagine you are here talking to me about all the things we used to do together It is so hard to have you so far away from me I just want to be able to give you a hug or cry on your shoulder and be able to share the special moments I have Until I see you again I hold you close to my heart always...I love you

I know is hard the road we have choose, our paths even that are in the same route go in separate lines, but our souls are together,  I know is very hard for you tobe always away from me, but you are not because you are  always in my mind and in my heart,  I know you feel lonely when you have to be in this trips,  but you know I am there with you in your company,  yes! I understand  is hard to be faithful in your line of work,  and even there you have proved yourself again and again to me,  so why should I falter,  love is patient, love is understanding, love is forgiving,  and I know you are not  perfect but a human with flaws, but then even your flaws  make you beautiful.

We have a duty to humanity to show them that love exist , that there is love in this world, but to teach love, we  must experience and know how to love,  "Soul Mate" will open new doors to people to experience this quality of love, keep working , keep doing what you  do best, that you have always my love and devotion,  and never forget that I love you and I will be here for  when you come back, and I am also there next to you when you dream, I am always with you! 

I love you forever!I thank God each time I wake up in the morning for allowing me to breathe the air one more time in life and to let me love you still, today. Your presence in my life has given me hope and made me believe that true love still exist in the world, at least still exist inside of me.

When we first met, I bet none of us knew that we would share such a great time together eventually fall in love.At least it never occurred to me until one day i woke up and realized that I am deeply in love with you. Everything comes so naturally that I thought Fate had planned for us to be together. Allow me to reminisce the moments that we had together, those unforgettable moments......

You said you loved me, you said you cared, but when I turn around you are not there. I waited for you long enough you put me through hell and never gave up. You pushed and pulled and played with my heart the moment you said we will never be apart, now I am looking at you dead in your eyes and all along you were telling me lies. I'll never forget what you put me through but sure enough you'll want me to come back through. In the end, just to let you know I'll always love you rain, sleet, or snow.

You are living a fake life when you smile and there is nothing to smile about, and You telling me everyone knows about us? Why the hell make up lies about who you talk with in phone...I am sick and tired of all this...and I cant do this anymore!

You are living a fake life when you have to cover your pains and sorrows. You are living a fake life when you hang out with friends, and at the end of the day, you do not gain anything substantial from their company. You are living a fake 'make-belief' when they feel you are the 'light' of the party,' yet when you get back home at night you feel you are at a loss, all alone and sunken, with no soul-mate lying next to you at night. In other words, your life is fake when you place priority on the wrong things.... I know you don’t see my pain, as me and you are not the same. You live in a world that is sick, you cant see you hurting me and hurting people around you.  

I often wonder what goes on in your head, why such an evil live you’ve led? What gives you the rite to take my sanity? I guess we’ll never be the same, as you, your playing a sick twisted game. You cannot just come and barge in like nothing You cannot hurt me anymore...Thoose days are over. I don’t want any more scars in my chest I have the strength to say no to your loving words So please go away and never turn back.

How can I hurt so much because I can't have you, when you were never mine to have. How can I want you when you belong to some one else. With each breath I take I seem to love you more. With each passing day i wish for the impossible. Yet while my heart was freely given to you, i hold onto spirit, but then again you posses that to.  

And in my heart There holds the hope Of a beautiful white dove But until that time Could be again I’ll just say… Goodbye My Love

People Come Into Your Life for a Reason True friendship should not be taken for granted, nor should they be lost and irretrievable. Have you stopped to think lately how blessed you are at this moment? Your station in life is because of where God has placed you for a time such as this, despite the things that you may ascertain that are deemed trials or other tribulations.

Even so, the journey has not been traversed alone. Your bandwagon had many occupants and with many stops along the way and so have mine. We are here together at this place where fate governed our destiny. On a personal note, I know for a fact that I'm where I'm at now in my life because of those that God has put in my life for influential value.

The friends that I've ushered in and cultivated...even those that have drifted away from me -- I know too, that we've had our moments. Think about acquaintances you've come in contact with, people that have been introduced to you, and the friends that have come and gone in your life.

I'm reminded more often than not how discernible options can fuel deductive reasoning, logic and common sense in knowing that not all people are my cup of tea -- or coffee, for that matter!

I dont know where to begin...its been so much lately You know I am tired of saying  I'm sorry I'm tired of always having to be in the wrong I’m tired of fighting for what  has been lost in the past. I’m tired of being the one who can’t sleep at night coz I am so worried about you.

The one who always has to care I’m tired of having to beg for your forgiveness over and over again even thought I havent done anything wrongs... I’m tired of saving a thought for you each time I doubt that you’re thinking of me too…I’m tired of never knowing where you stand Or what it is we have...  I’m tired of selflessly making these efforts

But I can’t help but remember the way You and I used to be together The plans we made the jokes we’d share Like our love was bound to last forever… And I remember how we used to enjoy  Every single chance we had, just you
and I There was no one and nothing that could come between us Remember me catching the tears you’d cry…

Remember you promised to never leave me far… But I am also tired of remembering Because those good memories  sure can hurt I want to hold on but can’t bear to live through again My shattered heart being dragged through the dirt… So I will push aside what I remember of us Into the darkest corner of my lonely mind And when you come back looking for  your love...You will find a tired heart who tried...

I always thought we'd grow old together.Facing each new day. But now, in the tears that fall upon my face. Your memory fades away. In my bedroom, surrounded by empty walls. I want to scream and shout. My mouth opens,
but the tortured words... Just won't come out. My heart bleeds.Your love is like salt on an open wound.

Reminding me you once were here in my life.Warm like the blood in my veins. The love I had for you, so dear. Sorry I loved you so. And you didn't feel the same.  When I think of what could have been. What a waste! Such a shame!

Stone by stone, I'll re-build my life.I'm stronger when hardest hit. I know only to well. This is the time I must never  quit. My conscious asks the question. I long to hear. Is the grass really greener on the other side? My conscious asks the question. I will always fear...

There are motives for everything. Juxtaposed against the backdrop of advantageous endeavor, people leverage and jockey for position all the time, and often it’s at the behest of the aforementioned friendship. Do you believe that people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime? Author Jean Dominique Martin when gathering information for her mindset on this subject, said it best by leaving lasting impressions that give homage to the fickle nature of misplaced intent when it comes to options in choosing friends.

Now that I have your attention, I ask you: what does friendship mean to you? How well do you choose who would be your closest allies? There are reasons why people are essential in our lives, and is the basis for me writing this essay. In a way, this is my way of paying homage to my constituents and friends who have stuck closer to me, despite my flaws!

I have mixed emotions about people that have come and gone in my life, though…there were those who left because the level of intimacy was based on unbalanced time-sharing and other reasons for not maintaining something that could stick and stay. What bothers me more is when their mannerisms change, they become incognito, and make themselves scarce once they feel that things are not conducive to their train of thought as opposed to seeing how the friendship can be saved for the long term.

Yes, people have motives that they tend to hold close to vest and out of your sight. Now comes the time for me to assess those that fit this category. I’ve always felt that when you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. You will not be caught unawares because you are alert, aligned and less arrogant. Check my logic out here why people come into your life either for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die, or fade into anonymity. Sometimes circumstances dictate that they go in another direction leaving you to wonder; sometimes they walk away, uncaring and unwilling. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand, hoping that enmity hasn’t reared its ugly head.

But when amity is afoot there can be no doubt where good intent fuels the art of reaching out. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. Reasons can go against you…but when it does, all you can do is assess it for what it’s worth, monitor subsequent correspondences, make your decision and know when it's time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON. They may only be there for a short period of time based on premeditated agendas; they may have motives that are not condoned by you, or because your turn has come to share with them in growing or learning new initiatives for the future. If all things are good, they may bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh.

They may introduce you to new routines and techniques that you have never experienced. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real! But only for a season -- they move on. Seasonal tidings with this situation usually deal with those that are going through changes, can’t cope with certain situations that cause them to step outside of comfort zones, or are unwilling to take chances.

Other seasonal folk readily recognizes their own kind, and will not hesitate to cut you loose. The key to coming full circle after misunderstandings may have caused a rift is to humble yourself, accept that perhaps you could have done something better and move on. if it's meant to be they will return, if not then it just wasn't meant to be....

LIFETIME relationships are harder to recognize for the moment, but with time can be the best choice you can make. But how many people do you know are willing to persevere for the long haul? Find one and I guarantee you will have him or her as someone trustworthy.

Life timers teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. They accept you for what you are, do not prematurely judge you, do not have any inhibitions about taking chances for the betterment of the relationship, and surely feel that compatibility is something that is assessed as you go, not at the spur of the moment. They don't adhere to conditions and will be there during the zero hour. There’s GOT to be something that you can learn from this type of person.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. This is Agape Love at it's core..the type of love that God is. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Silence doesn’t suppose to be as ominous to cut deep like the sharpest knife. To be cut loose dangling trying to fathom how it went south is to understand that directional change does not have to be defined by ill winds and misplaced logic, but by common sense and discernable options working for the best.

I thank all the people I’ve met in my lifetime who have lent me their ears, allowed me to belong, gave me love and let me love them back. I’m all the better because somewhere, somehow, and someone have given me hope that friendship is not fleeting, integrity is intrusive, and that good intent coupled with works can be a true embodiment of comraderie for as long as it is deemed necessary to embrace a true friend! And for those that I’ve called a friend at some point in my life, you will always be one…but know that you will not be forgotten.

This is why as I write, I look to all whom have given me the wherewithal to be me. I love my literary Diaspora and the people in it who gave me hope and felt that to write the vision and make it plain. There are too many of you to name, but a few readily come to mind -

If your name is not on this list, don't hold it against me but Know that I know you know who you are! All I want are lifetime friends where reciprocal value is measured in a platonic way.

People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built....